maggie, i think you're a great friend. i don't think u need to be so hard on yourself. i think everybody asks themselves those questions. we all learn.. and we all keep learning.. even when we're old & grey. but i know God will mold you into that person that He wants you to be. i know He has a good plan for you.. a great & perfect plan to give you a bright future. and He has started good work in you.. and He will carry you through till the day of completion. x)